A little bit of panic

So here I am, midway through the second week, and I already feel like I've been doing this forever. I'm tired, and drained emotionally... and mostly I'm just really stressed. The first week's homework just kept building over the week and climaxed with my 3 hour Biology lecture on Friday where the prof dumped 3 quizzes, a pre-lab, and a worksheet on us for the following week. My weekend was spent cooking dinner for my over-worked boyfriend and plugging away at hours of reading. Sunday night I was up until 1:00 am finishing up the Bio homework for the next morning... and that was just week #1!! It can only build from here, right? Sick.
Well, Sunday and Monday (and the beginning of Tuesday) were spent thinking my life had ended and there was simply no way anyone could keep up with the work load of 7 full-time courses. Whenever I tell fellow classmates or friends about the number of courses I'm taking they gasp in shock and shake their heads in horrified sympathy. I was grumpy and depressed and distracted. Well, I still am. But in the last day and a half I think I've managed to shift into a slightly better frame of mind. Sure, the sheer magnitude of the amount of homework I have is overwhelmingly impossible to complete... but I can only do my best, right? There's no point in obsessing over the things I can't get done as long as I'm working to the best of my ability all the time and giving it my everything (which is all I have to give, so it had better be enough). Know what I mean?
My last class today was Biology (which is by FAR my more difficult - anatomy and physiology, dont cha know)and everytime I've come out of that class previously I've felt burdened and panicked... today was different. At the beginning of class we had a vocabulary quiz for which I had studied tremendously hard and I got PERFECT! This put me in a much better mood... and then at the end of class the instructor was handing back our worksheets and he held up mine for everyone to see, praising it's detailed diagrams and excellent coverage of the topic. He did this anonymously, of course, but I knew that it was mine and that's all that mattered. I left feeling great :)

So, all this to say, that it looks like I'm going to make it. I've realized that when everyone said that Nursing school is deadly difficult, they weren't joking and I'm no exception. It's tough... really tough. But the material is so interesting, and I love the people in my program and my teachers and the whole concept of nursing. There's no doubt that nursing is for me... now it's just the work load I need to figure out.

Until next time,
Brittany